[Side Story] Wind Flower (5)
The soft light of the full moon seeps through the fluttering curtains.
Ed’s face, looking up from the darkness, is infinitely serious. He seems to be deep in thought, as always… No matter how rational and rational a man may be, there are limits.
Patience is bound to run out at some point.
Ed Rothtaylor’s patience and self-control may be considered superhuman, but they are by no means infinite.
Yenika whispers with the intention of delivering a final blow to the faltering reason. I’m okay.
That warm relationship where each person understands, cares for, and embraces each other is beautiful. However, let’s not think about such complicated things for now. It’s time to graduate from the flower field in a fairy tale full of beauty.
An illustration from a children’s book that Jenica read when she was young.
A refreshing story that ends with a handsome prince rescuing the princess, lifting his bangs and giving her a cute kiss. With just that one kiss, Yenika was pounding the pillow, pressing the blanket, and letting her imagination run wild…
I had to realize that the kiss in real life was completely different from the story in the children’s book, which was cutely drawn in a cute watercolor style.
As Ed’s calloused hand brushed her forehead, Yenika had nowhere to hide anymore. With her trembling eyes and flushed cheeks exposed and no longer able to hide them, she had to wait stiffly for Ed’s next move.
Is this what a fish on a cutting board feels like?
Now I’m in a strange state where I can’t help but be guided by a man named Ed Ross-Taylor. Even the strange sense of immorality that comes from being ruled is a new world for Yenika.
Ed Rosstaylor was equally nervous. It’s not that I don’t have any experience with women, but this situation of directly touching an innocent and lively girl like Yenika… It encourages a different kind of hesitation.
Thoughts about whether this is okay are constantly gnawing at my head… No matter how rationally I looked at it, there was no reason why this should not be done.
Yenika herself said it was okay, Ed himself had already almost declared that he was trash, and the villagers… Even Yenica’s family was nodding their heads.
The hand that went across Yenika’s forehead and down her jaw line… It is okay to extend down a little further. There is no one in the world who can stop the movement of that hand.
If there’s no one to stop you, you just keep going. Ed swallowed an uncharacteristically dry saliva once, and then she gently kissed Yenika’s shoulder while stroking her shoulder.
My lips were on fire.
To that extent, the surface of Yenica’s skin was completely heated. Has her shame reached its limit?
It wasn’t our first kiss. However, kissing in this situation and atmosphere is a completely different experience than briefly touching lips at camp.
Illustrations in children’s books cannot be compared to reality. Just by touching the surface of her lips, Yenika had to experience her whole body trembling and a sticky feeling pounding in her chest.
Love between a man and a woman is like holding hands and smiling at each other in a pretty pansy flower field… It’s not just full of heartwarming scenes like that.
Rather, the creepy feeling of entering a forbidden area is closer to the essence.
For the first time in her life, Jenica experienced such a feeling.
Ed’s mouth parted, and Yenika gasped, waiting for Ed’s next move.
Just as Ed’s hand was going down little by little, heading towards the next bend… Yenika couldn’t hold back and raised her voice.
“Ed… that… ”
From this point on, the meaning of skinship itself changes.
In the situation just before that, Yenika barely managed to make her voice sound like she was struggling.
“Okay, you can ask such pathetic, stupid questions… ?”
“now… ?”
“Yes… ”
Ed paused for a moment and nodded quietly.
“Uh, Ed… “Am I the first?”
I couldn’t help but gasp for a moment at the question that seemed to pierce my lungs. In a situation like this, when a question like this comes up, no one has no choice but to stop and think.
Ed was the same way. I thought about thinking about it for a while, but in reality, the option of ‘contemplating’ is no different from the worst. This is because the answer is likely to have arrived at the point where you thought about it.
There is no reason to tell lies to Yenika, and the atmosphere could only get weirder if she shows strange consideration… For now, Ed shook her head.
“Huh… ”
The short answer must have been such a shock that Yenika held back tears. In fact, there is nothing that can be said about Yenika.
Ed met Yenika after he entered Sylvania Academy, and what Ed’s life was like before that is completely beyond Yenika’s control. In fact, it’s the same after that as well.
As a duke master, he must have lived a life completely separate from Yenika. From Yenika’s perspective, Ed’s life before entering school is entirely a realm of imagination.
So I can’t say anything to Ed, who just shook his head. However, I can at least ask for a favor.
“I-I’m saying this is my first time… ”
“… ”
“Eh, Ed needs to take the lead… I really… Because my hair is pure white… nothing… I do not know… .”
Although Jenica said it with pure intentions, she probably had no idea how much meaning it meant to the other person.
Do whatever you want, I will follow. There was no man who could maintain patience in front of this.
Ed’s hand went down along the curve. Jenica closed her eyes and steeled herself. After that, things went smoothly.
As Ed’s hands became busier, Yenika’s voice became louder in response. Sometimes we lusted after each other intensely, as if this moment was a waste, and sometimes subtly, as if this time would last forever.
Holding each other in one’s arms, making eye contact, and touching each other’s skin.
For Jenica, who has no experience with the opposite sex, every little action seems like crossing a forbidden line. It’s the first time I’ve hugged the solid, heavy man’s size and body with my entire body, and the feeling of resistance, as if I’m doing something I shouldn’t, doesn’t go away, even when I feel his hands flowing gently like water along my skin and his breath close by.
It is only after Jenica touches skin so closely that she realizes the difference between Ed and herself even more clearly.
Not things like status, personality, background, or values… A more wild and primal difference. Heavy hand movements, strong arms and legs, a height that is more than an inch taller, a body that cannot be embraced even when hugged tightly, and his body, which was completed after repeated periods of constant survival, is clearly compared to the brittle, thin and pure white limbs of Yenica. do.
The kiss was repeated a few more times, but the more it happened, the more my heart beat. Whatever it is, when it comes to behavior like this, you really have no adaptability at all. I realize that fact.
Every single touch, kiss, breath, warmth, I can’t get used to it all. Every time, as if it were the first time, her heart was pounding and it pushed Jenica as if she was going to faint at any moment.
Ed was well aware of that fact, but he was no longer in a position to look after Yenika’s situation.
Even though he was busy, he lifted Jenica’s bangs once in a while and gently made eye contact.
Every time that happened, Yenika still couldn’t adapt and tried to avoid eye contact with an embarrassed expression. Still, Ed did not give Yenika any more room to escape.
By taking the time to make eye contact with each other, it gives us a chance to regain our composure… Rather, it had the opposite effect for Yenika. Meeting her face up close with Ed requires a great deal of mental strength.
I closed my eyes tightly like that, but I found it amusing to watch Jenica trying to make eye contact again, so I got to the point where I tried it half as a joke.
At this point, Yenika was already half-conscious.
Even if you raise your voice while feeling Ed’s touch, you take a break for a moment and make eye contact and look at each other, or you gently support each other without saying a word while hugging.
When Ed used strength, she held on, and when Ed stroked her, she felt the warmth, and just played with his hands, going back and forth between tension and relaxation.
And what was surprising was that he was enjoying that feeling quite a bit.
Even though my arms and legs weren’t tied and I couldn’t do anything, I felt something building up in my chest just by moving as instructed.
When Ed patted her head and hugged her again, Yenika realized. This is a feeling of happiness.
It may be a bit rough to express it in a general way, but other than that, I had no vocabulary to express this feeling of satisfaction that was blooming in my heart.
Yenica Palover is feeling happy right now. Hers was not a simple satisfaction of desire, but an unreasonable feeling of positivity and hope for life.
This is what spending the night together was supposed to be like.
It is a process of reaffirming the value of one’s life by relying on someone else’s warmth, rather than satisfying one-dimensional desires such as seeking only each other’s warmth in a messy place.
It is a confirmation that you are not alone. Whether the road unfolds is a flowery road or a thorny road, there is someone next to me who will walk hand in hand with me.
It wasn’t a life full of sunshine. In fact, he had had more dark days since entering Sylvania.
The anticipation that weighed down my shoulders, the magic circle of Glaskan that filled the sky, the memory of crying in a broken nail tube, the cry of Seongchangryong that roared with the will to burn the continent, and the heartbeat of Friede that covered the sky above Aken Island. The sound and the will that broke through the hordes of monsters covered in scars.
And at the end, the loneliness of Jenica Palover, who endured it while bleeding, crying, and gritting her teeth.
Even though you may not be able to make up for those cold days, there is someone by your side who will understand.
As if confirming how great happiness it was, Yenika suddenly shed a few tears.
“… Are you okay?”
“I’m not crying because I’m scared.”
“… then?”
“just.”
Even when people are happy, they cry. I realized such a new fact.
Jenica felt Ed’s thumbs brushing around her eyes, and looked up at the corners of her mouth.
Has the tension finally eased?
Ed nodded and pushed the large pillow at the edge of the bed under Yenika’s waist.
Because of the upright waist, it seems as if the body is proudly pushed upward, emphasizing the curves of the body for no reason. She might get used to it, but Yenica still blushed and caught her breath.
Ed brushed his chin once and then supported Jenica’s waist with both arms.
It was obvious what was going to happen next, but in reality, the body wasn’t important. Suddenly, the connection of the mind rather than the body was giving the two people greater satisfaction.
Sharing a sense that each other cherishes one another is one of the greatest happinesses a person can feel.
The thoughts that Jenica had in her heart as the long night continued were the same. Will such a happy moment ever come again in my life? The joy and regret were swirling at the same time.
After that, Yenika just held the pillow tightly as if it were her lover.
You can either clutch the pillow under your waist tightly, or lie down and bury your face while holding your body in your arms, or support your body with your arms, or rest it on the back of your neck and look at the sky…
As such a long time passed and Yenika made various movements, she realized two things.
One was that his body was not as flexible as he thought, and the other was… Ed’s stamina, which seemed to last forever, had its limits.
Is the end coming soon? When Ed stroked Yenika’s cheek once and made an appearance that seemed to give strength to her abdomen, Yenika hugged his shoulder tightly.
I was wondering if this man was going to run away somewhere, and for now, the thought of wanting to hold him tightly in my arms arose… Until the very end, Yenica wanted to bury her face in Ed Ross Taylor’s wide chest.
*It’s quiet yet full of energy.
It may be a contradictory expression, but there is such a strange feeling at dawn in a mountain village.
Although the majesty of the mountain range could not be seen due to the fog rolling down the ridge, the noise of daily life occasionally echoed through the village.
From the time when even the sun was asleep, this village began preparing to move.
Tobacco smoke drifts up, but soon it gets caught up in Merilda’s kick and disappears in a flash.
Merilda, who was looking at the mountain scenery from the roof of the hotel, looked down at me, who had come out early in the morning and was smoking a cigarette, and smiled mischievously.
[You look tired~]
As I sat quietly on the tree stump in front of the hotel and listened to the sound of insects in the early morning, I was about to say something but ended up saying nothing.
Yenika is completely lost and asleep. She covered her with a blanket and when she went outside, she saw people leaving for work in the early hours of less than five o’clock.
“You also have a very mischievous side. “Merylda.”
[What a new thing~. ]
Merilda jumped down from the roof of the hotel and landed on the floor, pressing down on the hem of her skirt that was blowing in the wind.
He flicked down his white hair, which was tied back, and then came behind me, lowered his posture, looked up at my face as I was smoking a cigarette, and said teasingly.
[Trash~]
I was trying to say what I should accept, but I thought it would be better not to deny it, so I stayed quiet. Since this was something that Meryl herself instigated, in fact, she would not have much of a say.
[I don’t want to neglect Yenika, but I also don’t want to put a burden on her… Well, I will admit that you did your best in the position and line you could take, but… ]
Merilda sat down on the tree stump next to me and spoke while fluttering the hem of her skirt.
[I can’t believe you’re nodding your head when other women ask you to do whatever it takes, whether you’re involved or not… Yes, Nika, maybe she will face even more hardships… ]
“Hey dude.”
[You don’t know what’s going on in the world~. One day, you may suddenly open new eyes. ]
Merilda smiled as if she didn’t hate it, and played a prank on me by sending out wind magic and blowing away my tobacco smoke.
I knew that it was a spirit with a playful nature, but it seemed to be in a better mood today.
The reason was understandable.
“Anyway, we need to start investigating Tyrkalax soon. “I have to finish quickly and return to Aken Island.”
After lighting all the tobacco, I talked while rubbing the fire out.
Merilda, who was listening to those words, spoke again with a faint expression on her face.
[ I know that? ]
“what.”
[ In this area, the pansy flowers that bloom along the mountain ridges are called wind flowers. ]
“okay?”
The wind blew. It is a cool breeze at dawn.
The cool breeze blowing down the mountain ridge is always refreshing.
With her pure white hair flowing, Merilda quietly looked up at the wide-open mountain ridge.
[Why do you think they call it that? ]
“Is it because it’s always swaying gently in the wind?”
[Similar, but subtly different. ]
With that lonely face he occasionally made, the wind wolf spoke softly.
*“Can I get you something to drink?”
On the way up after smoking the first day of the year, the hostel owner kindly asked me a question. I said thank you, went up the shabby stairs, and opened the door. Maybe it’s because I didn’t sleep much last night, but I felt like lying in bed a little longer.
Yenika must have just woken up and was wiggling her toes.
It seemed like he was watching me with his body buried under the blanket, as if he was embarrassed to show his face. This is the so-called wise man time.
I sat down on the bed across from me and put the water kettle on the nightstand.
Then, after pouring a glass of water into the cup, I took one shot at a time and put it down.
“… ”
So quiet for a while.
After taking some time in the silence that followed, I decided to raise my voice again.
“Hey, Yenika.”
What was so surprising about just one name being called? Jenica shook her toes and trembled violently.
And the way he carefully stuck his head out from under the blanket looked just like a squirrel hiding in a hole.
“I have to go investigate.”
I felt sorry for Yenika, who was shivering under the blanket, so I decided to give her an excuse to come out.
Once you have something to do, you have no choice but to do it even if you don’t like it.
Jenica pulled out her face from the blanket wrapped around her body, turned her head, shook off her stray hairs, and answered with difficulty.
“Ah Okay… ”
My voice was completely gone.
It was worth it.
