The World’s Best Childhood Friend Episode 878 (878/880)
My head feels dizzy.
Every time a voice I didn’t recognize rang in my head, I felt like vomiting.
I clutch my chest and try to catch my breath, but even that isn’t easy.
What is this? What does this feel like?
The view ahead is blurry.
What had been only audible sounds gradually began to blur my vision.
The scenery has changed.
It wasn’t the Dang So-yeol I had seen in the night, but a figure somewhere else.
It’s blurry and hard to see, but it’s definitely not night.
Rather, it was a bright day. The faint sight of autumn leaves seemed to be similar to the current season.
Where am I? Where the hell am I and when is this happening to me?
and.
‘Just a little more.’
On the one hand, I was confused, but on the other hand, I was concentrating because I wanted to see more of the sight.
Should I say I can’t take my eyes off you? Or should I just say I miss you?
It’s a feeling I can’t explain myself.
However, I wanted to see it somehow. I couldn’t see the expression. It was me and someone sitting in front of the cabin I saw for the first time in the place I saw for the first time.
-Yeah, like that.
The woman smiled, satisfied with having her name called.
But.
-Please continue to be like that.
There was a strange sadness in the smiling voice. So I asked.
-Why are you doing that?
What are you so sad about? Why are you sad even though I gave you what you wanted?
I asked that question, but there was no answer.
I couldn’t tell if the woman wasn’t speaking, or if I couldn’t hear her voice in my memory.
‘say.’
But I wanted to hear it.
‘Tell me.’
I wanted to grab hold of him somehow and ask him, but it seemed like the me in my memories would no longer open my mouth.
It’s stuffy. It’s even more so at this moment when I can’t move my body.
Why am I so impatient and frustrated?
This was also unknown.
‘I’m telling you to move.’
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I grit my teeth and try to use my strength. I know that even if I do this, I won’t be able to move from my memories.
Still, I felt like I had to do it.
At that moment, when I was putting all my effort into doing everything.
Swish.
‘…!’
My body moves in the blurry scenery.
Did I move? I’m not sure, but I did move the way I wanted to.
Hands go up.
The woman who saw it flinched. Her expression was not visible. It was because the blurriness had not improved.
-…you?
A surprised voice is heard.
That moment.
“Confucius…!”
“…!”
I woke up to the interrupting voice.
“Your Majesty… Are you okay?”
“…ah….”
Tang Xiaoyeol’s face came into view. She reached out and stroked my cheek.
“Why… why are you crying, Confucius? Is it because of me…?”
You’re crying? At those words, I hastily wiped my eyes with my hand.
It was true. There were tears in my eyes, even if only a little.
It’s ridiculous.
‘What is this?’
Why are you suddenly being so noisy? And what about the memory from just now? I’m momentarily dumbfounded because I can’t understand the situation.
“I’m sorry… .”
I had to open my eyes wide at Dang So-yeol’s words.
“what?”
“I… . Did I act unreasonably like that? I’m sorry… . That’s not it. I…”
“What are you talking about? No, it’s not like that.”
Although he added urgently, Tang Xiaoyeol’s reaction was already too shaky.
“…sorry.”
“No, sleep… .”
“I’ll go first. Get some rest.”
Before I could say anything or catch him, Dang So-yeol tried to run away.
Wouldn’t it be better to just let it go for now? That’s what I thought for a moment.
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At that moment, I checked Dang So-yeol’s eyes as he turned around.
The reddened eyes look like they might shed tears at any moment.
When I checked that, my hand went out first.
He grabbed Tang Xiaoyeol and held him in his arms again.
“…sorry.”
“…”
“That’s not it. Really.”
I tried to make excuses. Tang So-yeol didn’t say anything and just held onto my back.
The question of whether I love myself lingers in my head. What was the answer I was trying to give back then?
There was no need to look for it. How could I forget after so long?
…the problem is.
“I can’t answer right now.”
The thing is, I can’t come up with an answer to that question.
Dang So-yeol, who heard the words, squirmed in her arms.
“…why?”
It was a very small voice.
“You’re not sure…? Or is it because it’s not like that?”
The trembling in his voice made it clear how anxious Tang So-yeol was.
“… No. Neither.”
Are you not sure? No way. If so, then it’s not that kind of feeling? That wasn’t it either.
“I just… can’t spit it out right now.”
At least not for now. Not for now.
If I were to say it out loud now, I felt like everything I had been holding in would explode.
‘How are you maintaining it?’
Even though I’m just a little kid, I knew what kind of emotions the kids were feeling when they looked at me.
There was a part of me that found it difficult to hold back when those feelings clung to me.
But I had to endure it.
‘Not now.’
Now is not the time to do it, when nothing has been accomplished and nothing has been resolved.
At least after everything in front of us has been resolved.
It was the right thing to do then.
therefore.
“Just a moment… Just wait a moment.”
“…”
The hand holding the back puts more strength into it.
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“A little bit… how much is it?”
It’s a somewhat childish question.
Just like me back then, when I asked myself how many more days it would take for that day to come.
How should I answer? I shouldn’t have thought about it for too long.
This time, I just had to let out what was inside me.
“It won’t take long.”
I may not be able to give a definitive answer, but I did my best.
It won’t be that long.
No, even if it seemed like it would take a long time, I wasn’t going to make it happen.
“…”
Although he ended up giving an ambiguous answer, Dang So-yeol did not ask any questions about it.
He just sits in my arms, his face resting on my chest.
A lot of time passed like that.
“…all right.”
Tang So-yeol said, still not taking his head off his chest.
“I’ll wait… because I’m confident in that.”
It was a strangely bitter thing to say.
“Instead… Instead, I mean.”
Tang So-yeol’s head was raised. Their eyes met. The corners of his eyes were still red.
“If, Confucius, it is time to say that, please tell me first.”
“…uh?”
“I know. It’s not something that Confucius would say to just one person.”
“…”
I can’t deny that it feels like the world is trash. But I can’t avoid your gaze either, so I just swallow my sighs.
“No matter what Confucius looks like or what he does, I know that I am not the only one who can love that aspect of him. So it’s okay.”
“…”
“Hehehe… Your expression is really funny right now, Confucius.”
“…that….”
“Will you promise me?”
If you’re going to do something, do it to yourself first.
He said this while scratching his cheek while looking at Dang So-yeol who was talking like that.
“…I’ll try.”
“yes.”
Tang So-yeol’s expression changed as if he was satisfied with this trivial answer.
“Please, please try hard.”
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Dang So-yeol laughed bashfully.
I also smiled awkwardly at that smile.
Just when I thought the conversation was ending like that.
“But, Your Majesty.”
“huh?”
Dang So-yeol asked.
“Who is the storyteller?”
“…”
Oh, shit.
The atmosphere suddenly becomes cold.
Tang Xiaoyeol was still smiling, but his smile was ridiculously scary.
‘I heard.’
I blurted it out without realizing it, but it looks like someone heard it again.
In short, it meant that it was fucked.
“Are you a woman? Who are you?”
“… Did I say something like that? I’m not sure-.”
“I can tell from your expression that you know what I said.”
“…”
Shit.
I seriously considered running away, but Tang So-yeol was holding me with all his might in his arms.
It’s to the point where I’m worried my body will break down.
Woodduck.
“Ah… Does it hurt?”
“I’m saying it hurts.”
“Oh, yeah.”
I see. So you’re saying it hurts. Okay, then I guess I’ll have to suffer it.
“Who are you?”
“… No, that’s it.”
“Your Majesty, I hate to say this, but I don’t like increasing it any further.”
“Who said anything about increasing it?”
“Confucius, you have a conscience too, don’t you?”
“…”
Was there something like that? It seemed like we had come too far to discuss it.
“… Right?”
“Of course. Of course.”
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He answered urgently, his voice filled with life. Now was the time to create a conscience that had never existed before.
“Who are you?”
This was an attitude that he would not let go even if he died. The incident with Cheonma earlier was not like this, but his eyes were too sincere.
The problem is.
“…I know.”
“yes?”
The thing is, there’s not much I can say.
“Who could it be?”
“… What is that…?”
“I really don’t know. Who could it be?”
I don’t know who that person is either.
Dang So-yeol frowned at my answer, but I was sincere.
I wanted to know more about who this woman named Yehwa was.
It’s driving me crazy.
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Saaaaa–!
The grass swayed in the night breeze. The rising moon was close to a crescent moon.
As if to announce the end of autumn, the scent of winter is permeating the wind.
“…”
Someone was sitting on a rock and looking up at the sky.
The sky is cloudless today. Is that strange? The woman stares blankly at it.
What was he thinking? His expression was completely unpredictable.
“…hmm.”
A woman who had been quietly looking at the sky suddenly lowers her voice and moves her hands.
I put my hand out and stroked my chest a few times.
“… Ughhhhh… .”
A reaction as if something was strange. At the same time, an expression as if he didn’t understand.
The woman was lost in thought, her pretty purple eyes wandering around.
“what?”
Something felt strange today.
“what.”
It’s hard to explain. It’s even harder to think about.
I could only tilt my head back and forth with an unknown sensation.
“Hmm. Hmm. Hmm.”
It makes a sound every time you move your head.
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Compared to his mature appearance, his behavior was somewhat childish.
The woman who had been moving like that for a while suddenly stopped.
“I don’t know. Um, I don’t know.”
I came to a conclusion.
“I miss you.”
Who was it that she wanted to see? Even the woman herself couldn’t come up with an answer.
These are just words spoken out of instinct.
“Do you miss me?”
So let’s change it into a question.
“hmm.”
The woman’s legs moved slowly in the air.
at that time.
-Yeon-ah! Yeon-ah! Where did she go?
The woman stops moving immediately at the sound of a voice coming from afar.
At that moment, energy emanated from the woman’s shadow and enveloped the surrounding area.
-kite…!
Only then did I stop hearing any sound. That was the method I chose because I wanted to be alone now.
furthermore.
‘That’s not my name.’
I am not Yeon.
I just stay still because that’s what my sister calls me, but no matter how much I think about it, I can’t get used to it.
Instinct told me that my name wasn’t that.
Never think that way.
underneath.
‘So, what is my name?’
What is your name? What makes you think you are not Yeon?
This was the deepest worry the woman had ever had.
If you don’t like being called that, then say no. Your name isn’t that, it’s something else.
I guess you could say that.
‘I don’t know.’
The woman said no, but she didn’t really know what my name was.
‘…I don’t know.’
What is your name?
No, actually, maybe that’s not what’s important.
‘… What’s important is… .’
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Who called? I thought it was more important that she was a woman.
For someone who knows their name to call them.
The woman was waiting for that.
“hmm….”
I clutch my heavy chest. It feels stuffy and painful.
I didn’t want to think about anything anymore.
Swish!
The woman closed her eyes, narrowing the space she had created to hide her presence.
She hated being alone at night.
I just desperately wanted the light to come and day to return.
As always.
